I do not think God wants me to suffer, Do You?

These are the drugs I have prescriptions for from VA. I had three back surgeries in 3 yrs, Arthritis is crippling me. The doctors cannot practice anymore on my spine. I need a shot in my neck. I have cancer from Agent Orange or Camp Lejeune water, the VA could not decide the cause but admits they are responsible because of service. If I did not have the care I get from the VA I could not survive or afford to live. I do not take the psyco drugs for PTSD, those are brain robbers to me. Others may benefit, I have never talked to anyone that said different drugs

Many senior Americans are getting to the winter of their life and as some of us say, “Life ain’t for sissies!” or “Life is a @#$**” With multiple surgeries and pain from wounds many veterans are forced into addiction to gain any relief from the pain. Include those of all ages that face Cancer every day, the pain, the emotional toll, facing death, How do they get peace of mind. Why would anyone deny these hurting humans God’s own healing herb? This truck was at one time bright and shiny,


ready for work down on the farm or a run uptown. Now as with all the children of men it lies rusting, abandoned.

When I take the opioids as prescribed, I become a zombie, I only want to sleep and my health goes down as my weight goes up! Coming off oxy or hydrocodone is not for sissies no matter the age. Whoever takes these evil drugs for fun has got to have a death wish.

When we were in Viet Nam was the first time I smoked marijuana. We never used on an operation or on duty in the units I was with. When on a firebase fenceline we did not indulge, I heard some did but I never knew of an active combat unit that was using while active, and that was most of the time. I saw no drug use in the units I was at later except in Cuba when the fleet was in or a Jarhead would buy some from the Jamaicans the Navy had as cooks and other workers.  The marine would get caught or ratted out and get office hours. When I was working at the Datsun dealer as shop foreman, one of the mechanics found a huge plastic bag of weed in the new car they ( it was one of the Sewell Manufacturing of Breman Georgia sons) had bought a 280Z and had it in for service. The mechanic went to the grocery store and bought a big box of oregano and we shared some of the pot in the bag with everybody in the shop but Rick. Before that and after I can count on one hand the times I have shared some until my first back surgery and a friend gave me some brownies. Another gave me some raw weed. I made my own brownies and got off the drugs for the pain I was prescribed. Those brownies saved me. I never would have regained what health I have if I had stayed on opioids.

The government was giving us cigarettes and beer free or so cheap, to teenagers during the 4 yrs I served. I wonder how many veterans are now addicted to those two loser drugs? I don’t mean sharing a beer or wine, even a whiskey with friends or “for your stomach sake”  I mean when you must have __________(fill in the blank) or you face withdrawal after your mind is made up to quit and you have not quit!   When I returned to my hometown, I got a job and an education without even thinking of any use of recreational drugs. If MJ is addictive I have never met anyone that was. As I go into my 70th year I do not think I will be on the road or operating machinery or be too much of a danger.  I would like to see numbers on how many died from alcohol abuse, addictive hard drugs, prescription drugs compared to God’s own healing herb.

Grace full and overflowing

Here is a list, Count the ones died from dancing with Mary J?


Questions we ask?

Phil Drysdale a British follower of Jesus I read online asked these questions and I have tried to answer them as positively as I can.  Phil has a unique perspective and many times reading his blog or listening to his Grace Course I say”Why did not I think of that?” I have little to disagree with him on and those points won’t matter off this planet very much because we are covered in a deluge of grace.


TheGraceCourse – PhilDrysdale.com – Facebook – Instagram

  • What are the questions that bounce around in your head when you hear the words, Sex, Sexuality and Gender?                                                                                                  God was clear on how we were made. even in a story that has been twisted by some. God’s plan right down to our details in our physical bodies was male and female. Matt 19:4, Sin has corrupted us, just like the drunk that drives and kills. Sin has messed up our DNA. Culture has poisoned our brain into thinking some naked drag queen or bizarre sex act is normal because it is on the one-eyed god in our living room, laptop or handheld in our face.
  • What do you think are the important things I should cover?                                      Jesus said all the things that can cause us to sin and rebel comes from inside, our heart. Mark 7:21. Lust was just one of the number, Sexual immorality is sin against God’s plan. Does not matter who does it. I am so glad we can be forgiven when we repent and accept Grace.  Rev 2 tells the Churches of Christ to Repent!
  • What do you want more information on?  How to love my neighbor when I see sin in their life? Rev 9:21, James 5:20
  • What do you think are the key passages I should look at? Jesus teaching on the heart, Matt 15:19,  The things in Old Testament and in the new God finds abhorrent, hates or particularly speaks on like your talk on burning children and God said I have never thought of that! Luke 16:15, Romans 1:30
  • What do you see as the key issues of the day in this area?                                         Many are told that this (fill in the blank) is a normal sex act, normal marriage, normal lifestyle and we will marry you and any sex you have will be blessed by God. or this quote from a man that loves to have sex with a man, “It is ok with God if I love the person before we have sex! My reverend/priest told me that.” The clear issue is rebellion towards God. Perhaps the person is so bitter towards God, because of a bad experience with church, parents, priest/pastor that they are mad at God and just like an unruly child play in the mud for spite! Hebrews 12:15 
  • What do you think God is saying about this topic?     If David had not followed up after seeing Bathsheba on the roof bathing, maybe he would not have messed up? The “Ifs” get us on this. If I had not kissed her or him, If I had not asked her/him to lunch? The heart knows what you wanted and the devil may be happy with your sin but he did not make you do it. Satan does speak to you through all the voices of the world. He is the deceiver.    John 8:44                                                God hates sin. Grace covers all sin except that that is unrepented of. James said much about sin. James said a person is enticed or tempted and if they allow that lust to have its way leads to sin. The temptation is not sinning, the action on the lust of the heart/mind and a follow-through of the body is the sin. 
  • That the sin of Lust is right up there with gossips, liars, thieves, haters, bigots, those that harm children and idol worship.  Can we be forgiven? Yes, Romans 8:1


Ministries We Suport

DSCF0277We are a self-supporting ministry that believes followers should give to neighbors in need and support ministries that serve others as Jesus did helping the poor, seeking the lost and supporting the orphan, widows and homeless. We encourage you to give using the model of 2 Corinthians 9 with a cheerful heart knowing we can never outgive God.

We support and recommend these ministries:

Jesus Place Inner City Mission Atlanta Georgia  http://jesusplace.info/ministriesWe served with Jesus Place as interns in 73-74 while attending Atlanta Christian College. Jim Vernon started this mission to the homeless of the streets of Atlanta.

The Inn Ministry of Jacksonville provides a home for new and expectant mothers as an alternative to less than desirable conditions and abortion for desperate women.

1720 Hamilton St. , Jacksonville Florida 32210  cell 904-860-4164
Five Star Veterans center of Jacksonville Fl. http://www.5starveteranscenter.org/  

Five Star is a nonprofit homeless shelter for Veterans provides a full range of services to restore the person to an active life off the streets. My favorite! Semper Fi!

What is 2 Timothy 3 talking about “All Scripture”

20180702_0953362 Timothy 3:16-17 King James Version (KJV)

 “All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works.” When Paul wrote these words in his letter to Timothy about being a pastor, evangelist and follower of Christ the New Testament had yet to be written. Paul had his parchments and scrolls he speaks of 2 Tim 4:13. He may have had a copy of the Greek language Septuagint of the Old Testament  When Paul wrote he may have used this copy to quote from. Most of the writers appear to have access to the book also. Some of the Jews only spoke and read Greek at that time. 

The Mediterranean basin spoke several languages at that time, the common Koine Greek

the most popular among the common people. This was what was used to write the New Testament Gospels and letters with a few exceptions of Aramaic.  Now I am no theologian or doctor of letters. I did not pass Greek in college, My Dyslexia mind was not discovered until later.  Anyone can use the Greek concordance and find out what every word in the NT was in the original language  

I use Strong’s Concordance on this to check the meaning and discover where the same word is used.  site https://www.biblestudytools.com/concordances/strongs-exhaustive-concordance/

By using several translations I can get closer to an actual understanding of what God said via His inspired writers. I won’t bore you but if one says the Bible is corrupted they are ignorant of the history and how the texts were put together. Let’s say as some do the different translations are full of errors. Or mistranslated, or as in the case of a few texts used by fringe groups, cults are downright biased toward their views. I will measure these sometime later. For now, focus on this; The basic truth of Jesus Christ is evident in the theme of the New Testament, the God of Abraham is revealed in the Gospels and these facts are predicted in the Old Testament and demonstrated in the NT.  The simple Gospel truths are the same in the most mangled copy of the NT available today in the English tongue. God Loves you beyond measure. If we concentrate our entire being on the command of Jesus to love one another and to love God, we will follow the rest of the easy stuff. We can squabble about some of the rules and points of Paul till doomsday and all we do is divide more. We can be like Martin Luther when he read James writing about faith and works. Martin is said to have written in the margin of his German translation of the bible , “James , you are wrong!”   Martin came out so strong on the RC stance of penance, works and rituals that his cry of “Faith Alone” was powerful and to get by James he placed the letter in the appendix of his translation.  Of Course, James did not mean the works of the Law, The Torah, or adding to our salvation or replacing our salvation with anything. Our deeds and good works are because of our love, we have Grace beyond measure.        See James 2, Hebrews 11, Galatian 3  

For example, I like to read the King James Version, but I know the idiosyncrasies and word changes of the 1611 English vs the common English some of us use today. Example; the Lords Prayer in the KJV has a different ending from later translations. Many people scorned the NIV for dropping the verse portion in Matt 6:13 “ For thine is the kingdom,and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. ” KJV

The NIV added it as a note! Why? Because they found a recent copy older and more accurate that did not contain those words. The amazing thing is that archaeological discoveries tend to support the Bible as we have it. We may divide over tradition, rituals and rules but we are going to have to get along in the presence of God one day. Our race, language and egos won’t matter when we see Him as He is.

Like Charity for Love or “Bowels of mercies” All are words Shakespeare used but we no longer do in everyday conversation.  See this for more on words, we don’t use anymore that you need to understand in the KJV. 


The sight of this cross saved my life one dark and stormy night…………

What is your tradition you won’t give up for Jesus? If everyone did “Church” like you what would it look like to an unbeliever? Can you point to the scripture in the New Testament (New Covenant, the new agreement, The new Kingdom) that supports every ritual, rules and doctrine of your basis for your faith in Christ?  Isaiah 1:16 and James 1:27 are in support of each other on what we should be doing.  Every scripture and verse we use should be like those two. We should divide the covenants and timeline correctly. We should study each verse and command to ensure it is for us. You don’t sacrifice animals because—- You don’t need a temple to have an altar—— You don’t send your money to some silver-tongued devil to buy his 4 th aeroplane and neglect your neighbour or the homeless down the street do you?

I like what Dr King said:

You’ve seen these people who have a high blood pressure of creeds and an anemia of deeds.

– Martin Luther King, Jr.

Comments are welcome

Semper fi!


New wine in old bottles, No way!

A paradigm* shift for the Church! A simple Gospel!  How refreshing to put new wine in new bottles. To be a child following Jesus. No more temples, clergy, reverends, tithes on demand and silly man-made names, titles or rules to divide us. The New Covenant sets us free. A follower, not a fan! Amen Come Lord Jesus! Matt 9:17 

Let’s build the Church. We have the foundation #. When we are together we are able to be the Church! All that is needed is to acknowledge Jesus, invite Him to join us. Peter and the disciples went fishing and had breakfast with Jesus! John 21.  Perhaps you are like me and in your heart, you know that the model of today’s mainstream American Church is not the model in the New Testament. Of course, some groups are focused on Jesus and doing the right things as they follow the mission. If that is you and yours, “keep running the race”  Perhaps you have left the model that you once had as a child and followed this or that because you like the seed of the sower fell on rocky soil, or have been distracted by life events and the cares of the world. Fan or follower? Chan asks this question in his book “Crazy Love”

The traditional mainstream church in the CONUS is terribly divided with different doctrines, rituals, traditions and least of all names. If you read 1 Corinthians you see that early Church was divided, yet Paul called them Saints, Sanctified and the Church. My plea is not to throw rocks at anyone’s church or doctrine. My prayer is the same as Jesus when He said ” That they may be one” John 17: 21-

Paul wrote the Church at Corinth” I appeal to you, brothers and sisters, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another in what you say and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be perfectly united in mind and thought. 
My brothers and sisters, some from Chloe’s household have informed me that there are quarrels among you. 
What I mean is this: One of you says, “I follow Paul”; another, “I follow Apollos”; another, “I follow Cephas ”; still another, “I follow Christ.” 
Is Christ divided? Was Paul crucified for you? Were you baptized in the name of Paul? ” 1 Corinthians 3:10-13 niv
I am not advocating you give up anything of your faith. We are all learners, we are all followers if we truly seek Him. We are divided because we are human and we have our own mind. When we put on the mind of Christ we can see these differences and still agree to love one another.  What does God’s word say to you? Does it matter what I believe vs what you believe? Does what I think matter? Not really. What matters is the relationship we have with Jesus above and beyond all those traditional things we call religion and church. Religion has never saved anyone. Religion placed Jesus on the cross.
To begin we must find common ground. Do you love God with no reservations? If that is lacking you need Grace. I have many times, like a bratty child throwing rocks at God. He still loves me and I paid dearly for those tantrums. Accept His Grace.
When Jesus talked about forgiveness He is clear we can’t fail if we ask for Grace.

He said “Ask and it will be given unto you, poured out, overflowing. Forgive others, and you will be forgiven. Give, and you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full—pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. ” Luke 6, read the whole passage in your bible and forgive your biggest debtor, yourself.

My prayer for you today.
Lord, I come hungry and thirsty for your love. I come to drink, to fill my soul with you. I am redeemed by your cross and will be glorified in your resurrection. My sins are forgiven, my regrets are history and my death is defeated. Empowered by your Holy Spirit I can do all things through Christ. Without you I am nothing. I welcome your Lordship. I am happy to be your child. Nothing can separate me from your Love, Nothing comes to me that has not passed through you. In the name of Jesus above all names, Amen!
Accept His forgiveness, Grace and mercy, learn to love as a child. Jesus said, “Such is the Kingdom. “

* “Paradigms are the mental maps that we use to describe the world around us.” Stephen Covey 7 Habits of Successful People

#“For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ.”  1 Corinthians 3:11

Salt, Light, Wash Feet Ministry

My former blog from my active teaching years is here https://autoteachersonny.wordpress.com/    my journal of things we do is http://ontheofficewautoteacher.blogspot.com

Now that I am looking at my next career I must plan on a strategy, not that I had always planned and laid out well-laid plans. I depended on the false god, Luck for far too long. It was years later when my mom had begun to think I was her older brother Jack who had been in the Navy during WW2. Uncle Jack was a man’s man and my role model. I never knew of anyone around him that did not speak highly of his integrity and friendliness.  She talked to Uncle Jack when we visited her in the nursing home as she entered her 80s, only it was me she told the sister -brother things, like about

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how she would pray for me several times a day, every day I was gone overseas and in fields of fire.  Do you trust God or luck? God has been more reliable for me. Luck is a scary trickster!  Every time I made/make poor decisions, bad judgement calls and do/did stupid stuff God has taken my futile failing efforts and made the path clear when I return to trust Him.  “Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. ” Psalm 119:115

To be the salt that makes life tasty for others. Being a good neighbour and loving those around us, forgiving our enemies, especially ourselves. Many times I am my own worst enemy as Pogo said: We has met the enemy and he is us!”

Is the person that drove this forklift unlucky or fortunate? Oops

We will trust God in our life, no chance, luck or charm, magic or mystical incantation. We will get back to the simple word of God. We will cast off the man-made rules and rituals of religion and forgive. Learn to love the ones around us. We will depend totally on God’s Grace and mercy.  Our worship will be to be the church where we are. Was not that what Jesus told them to do?

In Acts of the Apostles, Luke wrote that “They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer.  Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common.  They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favour of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.” Acts 2:42-47 Does your Church look like this model in Acts? I think it is a good place to start if the heart of your worship is missing Grace. 

To dwell in this presence of God among our neighbours is our goal. What are your goals in the time you have left?